I’m afraid of how I feel about this woman.
It’s been two years, but am I really ready to feel like this again? To feel at all? I feel like the pain finally faded only days ago, and yet here I am, debating with myself if I really feel what I think I feel - what I know I feel.
I’m not some highschooler any more. I’ve been around the block. I know myself, I know my feelings, and I know what it means, what’s happening… I can see the first letter of a four letter word, and it’s terrifying.
I don’t know if I’m ready… but I’m already strapped in.